2021-02-08 23:07:27
Kuch time se kho sa gya hu....
Kahi gum sa ho gya hu...
Kahi bhatak sa gya hu...
Shayad thoda samjhdar ho gya hu...
Mizaaj khamosh ho gya mera...
Dhundne ko koshish kar raha hu khud ko..
Us pagal insaan ko...
Us jununi insaan ko...
Us nadaan insaan ko...
Us jhagdelu insaan ko jo is baazigar parivaar ke liye lad jata tha kisi se bhi...
Takra jata tha badi se badi taqat se kisi bhi ek us punter ke liye jise mai janta tak nahi.....
Tipping ki wajah logo ka bhala karna rahi humesha.....
Tipping ki wajah wo privaar rahe jin parivaar ka koi jimmedar insaan is gandi latt ka shikaar rahe hai...
Lekin mere kuch achhe matches se un gharo ke chulhe humesha jale hai...
Un parivaaro ki jarurate humesha puri hui hai...
Lekin aj shayad matlabi sa ho gya hu..
Selfish ho gya hu khud ke kirdaar ko le kar...
Aisa lagta hai ki ab kisi ki parwaah nahi rahi mujhe bus apne kaamo me ulajh kar bhul gya un logo ko jinki ummide mujhse judi hai...
Ye sach is field me start se aj tak sirf duaao ke liye raha hu paisa kabhi jaruri nahi raha...
Lekin aj shayad paisa jiyada hone ki wajah se duaao ki jarurat mehsus nahi ho rahi hai...
Lekin ye bhul raha hu duaaye thi to paisa tha duaaye band hui to paise ke raste kab band ho jayenge pta bhi nahi chalega....
Mujhe tarkki mili un bachho ki duaao se jinka baap mere kisi match ki wajah se unki fees jama kar pata hai...
Mujhe naam mila un behno ki wajah se jinke bhai mere matches ki wajah se unke hath peele kar paate hain..
Mujhe shohrat mili un biwoyo ki wajah se jinke pati mere matches ki wajah ghar 4 pal khushi ke laa paate hai...
Aur ye kirdaar pichhle 5 saalo me maine jiya hai mehsus kya hai aise msgs ko padh kar uska sukoon khud me utarte hue dekha hai....
Proud hota tha khud ke kirdaar per...
Jb msgs aate the ki...
Bhai aj apne jackpot dya tha to maine apne bachho ki fees jma ki...
Maine biwi ki jewelry girvi rakhi thi wo uthayi..
Bank ki instalment jama ki...
Bada jackpot cash hua to behan ki shaadi ke liye dahez iqhatta kya...
Khud ko asal me zinda mehsus karta tha us waqt jb msg aate the ki bhai jb aap open aate hai to meri dono behne apke pass hone ki duaaye mangne liye namaz me baith jaati hai...
Kisi ki maa gurudware ja kar baazigar ke liye dua karti...
Kisi ki biwi ya bachhe mandir me bhagwaan se baazigar ki jeet mangte hai....
Ye wo pariwaar hai jinke ghar se koi jimmedar is gandi latt ka shikaar hote hai aur chaah kar bhi chhod nahi paate hai kyuki jarurat badi hoti hai aur hath bohat tight....
Wo is gandi latt me ghir ke haar to sakte hai lekin nikal nahi paate ye sach hai....
Kyuki unki ummido ke minaar is gandagi pe tike hote hai ye log ya is field me ya to barbaad hote hai ya fir mere ya kisi achhe tipper ke followers ban kar ya khud se khel kar apni jarurate puri kar lete hai...
Lekin ye aib unki saanso se jud jata hai jaise wo saans liye bina nahi paate waise hi cricket betting ke bina nahi reh paate....
Kuch majburi me hote hai to kuch apni adat ki wajah se....
Lekin jise ye nasha lga bohat mushkil se nikal paya iski giraft se.....
5 saal me meri wajah se nuksaan me rehne walo ki ginti ap ungliyo pe kar sakte ho lekin jitna logo ne kamaya uska koi hisaab nahi wo baat alag hai ki mai open nahi raha to khud khel ke nuksaan kya...
Khair likhunga to aur likhta jaunga....
Filhaal to pichhle kuch dino se khud ko murda murda mehsoos kar raha hu...
Aisa lagta hai Zi to raha hu lekin zeene ki wajah nahi hai koi bus yu hi jiye ja raha hu....
Aisa bhi nahi ki ap logo ke beech nahi hu jaha meri jarurat hoti hai ata hu puri koshish bhi karta hu jitaane ki....
Lekin apna andaaz apna junun apna confidence sabkuch kho chuka hu....
Apne kirdaar se ye beimaani kis liye hai samjh nahi pa raha hu....
Shayad dusre kaamo me ulajh gya hu..
Shayad kuch 5,10% negetive logo ki wajah se mann hat gya...
Shayad aj blame lene se darrne lga hu...
Shayad Shayad Shayad....
Wajah jo bhi hai kho chuka hu khud ko..
Mujhe bus itna pta tha jb mai wo jununi baazigar tha to band dabbe ko bhi udhne pe majbur kar deta tha...
13.4K viewsAyush Baazigar, 20:07
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